An Apology Letter

Dear TAM,
I'm sorry. I owe you a true and deep, sincere apology. I don't know what else to say other than that. I never should have treated you the way I did, stringing you along pretending to want the same things.

I was lying. If not to you, to me. I know that now. I want things that you are unable and unwilling to provide. I knew that.

I think that's why it was so hard. I wanted to be with you, because I love you. I always will love you. And I tried to convince both of us that my love was enough. It would trump the true feelings of my heart.

It was when I realized my fingers were slipping away from my Savior's I realized I had to make a choice.

I broke up with you in my heart long before I walked out that cold January morning. Long before. I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you. I'm sorry I lied to you.

I wish I could make things right. But I know I can't. I know we can't be friends right now. I'm still healing, and you're healing in your own way.

But I hope you can forgive me. I hope that you are happy now. I hope that you experience a happiness I could never give you.

Love,
Angel.